#it brings some closure

[artharakka]

“Suru on eläin, jota ei voi koskaan kesyttää kokonaan.” ... “Ilves nostaa päätään ja tuijottaa minua. Se räpyttää silmiään kerran, toisen. Niissä hehkuu Maan auringon kadotettu valo, joka siilautuu vihreiden lehtien läpi. Sen sisuksista nousee matala, vaimea kehräys. Se näykkäisee sylissäni lepäävän käteni syrjää kevyesti, lempeästi, nuolaisee sitten peukaloani.” — Emmi Itäranta. Kuunpäivän kirjeet

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“Grief is an animal that can never be wholly tamed.” ... “The lynx raises its head and stares at me. It blinks once, twice. In its eyes glows the lost light of Earth’s sun, filtered through green foliage. From its depths rises a low, faint purr. With its teeth it nips the back of my hand resting on my lap, lightly, gently, and then licks my thumb.” — Emmi Itäranta. The Moonday Letters. Quote tranlated by me (unofficial)

[boar-cry]

Time ▪︎ Space

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[capcollector]

messy doodles but been thinking lately about a plot involving bunny and deacon running a mission together in some fancy setting. fake names, backstories, etc. i just want an excuse for them to dress up

[daincrediblegg]

I think what’s really just utterly compelling and really kindof beautiful about the whole James Fitzjames DNA confirmation is just how beautiful this intersection between history and the artistic mirror that we hold up to it coming together to celebrate this discovery is in a way breathing some life and even peace back into this person.

Like… I feel like a lot of the time we as a culture when we hear about the discovery of new artifacts, remains, remnants of history in any form, we have enough distance to it to accept the mysteries that we will never be able to reconcile about them. Like digging up folks who perished in pompeii, we may never know who exactly they were, what kinds of people they were. Who they loved, what they loved doing will remain as intangible to us as what they looked like. And it becomes harder with so many of those pieces missing to look at those bones and have any sense of certainty who they really were.

But we DO know James Fitzjames. In SO many ways. We know him because there isn’t just copious historical documentation on his life, the things he wrote, the things he did in his life the ramifications on the people he loved when he was lost, but also this weird little show that inexplicably gives us both a window into the unimaginable circumstances that led to his death alongside that of over a hundred other men, but also a mirror through which so many of us have been able to empathize deeply with the weight of those circumstances.

In that way we do really know who he was. And now he’s not merely a single jaw in an unprecedented pile of bones anymore, he has an IDENTITY again. And it’s taken so long and so many generations but we FOUND him. We had a tangible historical grasp on him already and it feels so much more personal now that we know exactly where he died. To know a rough time frame in which he perished. To know that circumstantially he was probably one of the first consumed in what was easily one of the most dire survival situations of his century- perhaps even ours. It’s closure and peace and relief for an individual that is still so cared for even though there are centuries between the time when he died and us and the circumstances in which we live. And from this information there is STILL more we can piece together for so many of the other individuals who were with him.

And we have all of that, all because of something as simple as a DNA test. That is one of the most beautiful things I have ever fucking seen.

[genericaces]

remembered my doomed weslah(?) post-nfa au that i can only describe as "wesley is an unofficial third to a semi-retired frunn who are now hippies in portland and also lilah is there"

wes grows a depression beard and gets really into building birdhouses. sometimes lilah, still liaison for w&h, shows up and together they're the most sexually tense couple at the farmer's market. (lilah makes him shave the beard)

obviously lilah decides that she needs to insert herself into this non-throuple in order to make wesley jealous and admit that he cares about... something. other than birdhouses.

anyways every visit inevitably ends with lilah being called back to work by the senior partners. she only gets to snag brief moments of freedom before she goes back to work, and every time wes has to say goodbye to her all over again he gets all morose and guilty about it.

and i think it's ultimately about hanging onto guilt and loss past the point where it's helpful for you because it's your last connection to someone, even though it's keeping you from living your life in the present, because on some level the idea of being happy feels like a betrayal. and trying to figure out what moving on even looks like

[intotheelliwoods]

thinks about how much 2al has changed in the past year+ and gets emotional

[khaire-traveler]

I've got to say, it's pretty terrifying apologizing to someone you've done wrong to, specifically something you know was very wrong. For a few years now, I've been filled with a lot of regret for something I said to someone. I was a drastically different person back then, to the point that I don't think anyone who knows me now would recognize that it was me. I've been through so much since then and learned a lot of lessons. Going through therapy was the biggest help in recognizing past mistakes made from a place of hurt. I'm not sure if that person will ever respond, but it's ok if they don't; they don't owe me anything. I just hope that they're well and my message can provide the closure they never got from me.

If you apologize to someone solely for the purpose of expecting their forgiveness, then you're not apologizing for the right reasons.

[afterthelambs]

i told my friend how interesting it is that Akechi appeared immediately after they defeated Yaldabaoth, while the other phantom thieves' wishes took until after the new year to manifest and my friend said "that probably means joker was thinking of akechi the entire time they were fighting yaldabaoth, wishing he was there with them" and im NOT OKAY ANYMORE

[pocket-solas]

Solas' romance didn't truly begin until right before he dumps your ass breaks up with you and the game ends.

Then in Trespasser he just doubles down on his bad decisions plans and literally says you cannot join him.

I really hope anything we get in Veilguard with Solas and Lavellan won't just be more of the same.

[nibbelraz]

Hello! I wanna know your take on the theory that sqh is yhr system.

I've heard different variations of this theory but I think him being the system is kinda close to him being a God since he basically changes the world and fits it to his idea. Another one Im thinking about thats cool is that the system is like a program of Qinghuas main outline and it's a part of him that's helping to bring about his initial idea. Like the system IS part of Qinghua, especially the part where he pesters the shit out of his number 1 hater. I do think it would be funny if System Shang Qinghua is giving out RIDICULOUS scenarios and rewards. Kinda like the God Shang Qinghua theory, except he's more confined to the systems way of doing things.

[dapurinthos]

“Is this the new hot spot in the Temple?” Rael lets himself drop down into one of the chairs and unslings the satchel he’s carrying over one arm. Out comes a large bottle of water and a depleted sleeve of small cups. The only beverage allowed in the archives is water, and there is a strict limit to the quantity one can have in an open container at one time. Food in the archives will result in punishment that is supposedly just short of being considered cruel and unusual by the Yavin Code of 3980, signed into being after the Great Hyperspace War. “It's the archives,” says Anap, as if it should be obvious this is the best spot in the Temple. Sifo-Dyas focuses in on Rael. “What are you doing here? Willingly?” “Hey, I can use the archives if I want. Where’s Dooku?” “Saying hello.” The air quotes are implicit as Sifo-Dyas nods toward the circulation desk. “He's flirting with Madame Nu,” I clarify. “Flirting?” Anap asks and I remember that I'm eight and probably not supposed to know some things. “Being friendly,” Master Koth says diplomatically. “Very friendly,” Sifo-Dyas stifles his amusement as Rael looks at the circulation desk like a battlefield would be his preferred arena.

[sainz100]

2024 Singapore GP | x

[lynxbatics]

ohhh DC you better sleep with one eye open tonight because you got me excited thinking there was a new episode of batman the audio adventures and it's an ad for a NEW PENGUIN AUDIO DRAMA 😡😡😡

[annamaryllis]

I would like to know exactly how luke asking annabeth to run away with him went down.

[jrueships]

I WANT WRITING PROOOOMPTSSSSSS

[nat-20s]

I like. Am not immune to thoughts about lonelniess and romance and what not but tbh honestly tbh a MUCH bigger part of my brain space is dedicated to thinking about the doctor who 60th anniversary special